Yesterday was pretty sucktastic around the Kelley household. It actually started out good. Amon had his first speech therapy yesterday and I really like our therapist. Amon loved it. Huddy and Sol loved it. There was lots of paperwork and bubbles and it was fun. I feel like we are on the edge of finally hearing the thoughts running through his brain and I am soooo waiting in anticipation for those moments.
After therapy our day went down hill and I let it. I let it slip from my fingers without much of a fight and I let Satan win the day and steal my joy. Amon refused to sleep…not sure what’s up with him because he loves to sleep…but the dude was a hot irrational mess. I wanted to yell out to Jesus…”Jesus come now.” He was a spit fire, tired mess. Lots of tears.
I had one gazillion things I needed to get done and I accomplished approximately one of those. I needed so badly to run errands too…Walmart, Target, Michaels, the post office, Rite Aid, Kinkos and Hobby Lobby. Yep, that was my errand goal yesterday and we didn’t even leave our house.
Amon was suppose to be having minor out patient surgery this morning and then the hospital called and said we would have to re-schedule because our insurance is unsure of what initially they were going to cover with the surgery. Hmmmmm. Yes, this sent me right over the flippin’ edge. I may have used curse words once I hung the phone up. So now we’re waiting to get the official word from our glorious insurance company and then we will re-schedule.
I have decided there will be a level in hell in which people are given medical bills they are “suppose” to pay…I even used my quotation fingers when I typed that…and they will have to talk it over via phone with hell’s insurance company of choice. If you are one of those nice insurance people, well then I tip my hat to you and want to buy you lunch because 9.9 times out of 10 I get someone who has clearly had a bad day and they want to make me pay for it by trying to make the phone call as difficult as possible and making me feel as stupid as they possibly can while they are at it. There will also probably be a level in hell called “The Car Rider Line” Just sayin’.
Then Amon slipped and fell like a tree right into the corner of a door frame. The result was the most blood I have ever seen come from a kid. It was literally fountaining out of his forehead. A paper towel would not hold up and we had to use a dish towel. He was absolutely pitiful and we then monitored him for a concussion. No one wants a concussed kid. The picture does it no justice…the goose egg is huge and purple.
I then had a fight with our computer over pictures which had to be printed because they were due this morning. #procrastinationatitsbest
Finally won that battle after an hour long fight and headed out to Rite Aid to print the pictures Harper needed for school. And remember the long list of errands I wanted to run, well finally after 7 o’clock I got started on all those places. My one saving grace I had decided upon would be Target and I would end this no-so-great-day with a coke and Target popcorn. I am afraid I need to join Emotional Eaters Anonymous. And then, NO JOKE, after I paid for my Target goods, the concession area was closed. I wanted to fall to my knees and yell out in despair. But I held it together and walked out to my car. I called Ashley and told her I didn’t get my popcorn and coke. And then I saw three people walking out of Target with their popcorn which they apparently snagged before the concession place closed for the night and I may have voiced out loud to Ashley something along the lines of, “I could probably just run them over with my car and take their popcorn.” We laughed, but I was clearly not my best self yesterday.
I cried lots and lots yesterday. I made bad choices and said things I shouldn’t have said. If you saw me out last night, well I have no words. I know I was rockin’ those dirty sweats and giving off a very frazzled, smeared mascara around my eyes, this day is for the birds vibe.
But when we went to bed last night, Josh Kelley and I laughed. We laughed at what all had unfolded and we talked about the good things yesterday held because there were actually lots of good things, but I had chosen to camp out on all the undesirable things…the things which had not gone my way. I made the wrong choice yesterday and today I’m thankful for grace.
Today I’m making a different choice. I’m rolling with the punches and I’m trusting God with this crazy thing we’re doing called life. I’ve opted to celebrate the victories…the joys…big and small. Like the fact that dinner is already simmering in the crock pot despite it being incredibly hot and humid today. Soup on an August day, boom.
They boys and I are having lunch with Josh. I’ve been able to work on orders lately and I’m planning on creating today too. That makes my heart fly.
There are just too many things to be grateful and thankful for…we are crazy blessed in so many, many ways. Today I choose different than yesterday. Today I thank God for His goodness and mercy and for His grace…His grace which I so very much need. To heck with yesterday, today is a new day.
Happy Tuesday.
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Oh my days like those…they are real and happen and I ALWAYS appreciate you sharing them. It makes me feel like I am not alone. Praying Amon’s head is better this morning….
I had a terrible day yesterday, too. It is so much better today! I also feel like I just let it get bad without a fight. Thanks for being so transparent. It is so encouraging to know other moms struggle! Sounds bad but its true:)
Amon is still the cutest kid, even with the goose egg and cut. One of the things I admire about you is that you pick up the pieces of a broken day and start new. Have a wonderful day today and I pray the insurance gets worked out in your favor very soon.
Right there with you about yesterday being a bad day! Mine consisted of arguing with my boss, bank and payroll company about why my check that I was supposed to get Friday wasn’t in my bank account. After many phone calls, bawling on the phone while telling my husband what a “pain” (insert curse word here) my boss was being (I am 15 weeks pregnant and extremely over emotional right now) and a trip to the bank, it finally got sorted out, thanks to a guy named Devin at the bank, whom I really wanted to hug when I left there. It did get exponentially better when my boss wrote me a check to pay me, since it was going to take a week to get the problem fixed. Anyway, today is a new day! PS-my insurance stories would fill an entire book, been there done that!
Needed this today! 🙂
oh girl– that was my week last week- and yep– just as you said– let Satan have his way and just roll all over my day like a dog in a grassy meadow. and i too am an emotional eater– for me? sonic cherry dr. pepper- and butterscotch chips mixed with semi- sweet chips right from the bags…. cheap therapy right there.
and i am so there with medical bills i am supposed to pay— and calling insurance companies who say they’ve paid it but yet still getting yet another bill from a lovely provider– 7 surgeries in 10 months– that be a whole lotta insurance going on.
so here, to make your tuesday even better— are some books that you HVAE to read out loud to your kids. HAVE TO. i am a book fiend.
to Harper— “The Miraculous Adventures of Edward Tulane” love.. you’ll both love and shed a tear or two. “The Tale of Desperaux” the movie sucks– the book does not– and lots of fun voices. “The Seven Wonders of Sassafras Springs”– I read this EVERY year to my kids. big love.
Any Mrs. Piggle-Wiggle book.
for the younger set (4 and below)— We’re going on a bear hunt…. love. “The Napping House” and that’s it– i have a list of a gazillion books for the 7 and over crowd–
Go hit Sonic at half price and have a better day!!!!!
I would love your list for 7 and older!
for 7 and up–
Peter and the Starcatcher series — the books get scarier (like Harry Potter) as they go– but oh my word– so good– Harry Potter good– explains everything about Peter Pan, tinker bell, Hook, etc… you’ll laugh out loud
The Dangerous Journey– Pilgrim’s Progress for kids– LOVE
The 7 Tales of Trinket–
The little house on the Prairie series– i refused to read these for years– we’re listening to them on CD and EVERYONE, even my 5 year old, loved them and begs for more–
must read all the ramona quimby books– that’s good for 5+
for 8+– Percy Jackson series is AWESOME!- not a good read aloud– read it for yourself!
my daughter- who is 10- LOVES “The Name of this book is secret” series– very funny– again- not a read aloud
The Candymakers– LOVE– for 7+
The Mysterious Benedict SOciety– it’s a series– the first book is amazing– read it aloud– i didn’t enjoy the 3rd book as much-
I am just so glad to hear other moms have bad days too. So sorry for yours though! You brighten my day every time you post.:)
Oh thank you for this! I so have days like this and hate them. Such a great reminder to be thankful no matter what!
Amen, sister!
amen. amen. amen. thank you so much for sharing. I have days like this….where it all just goes badly and I make bad choices. and I feel like such a failure. i needed to read this. i needed to see that i am not alone. thank you.
Thank you for your wonderful honesty, Laura. It is always refreshing! BTW, that area of the head that Amon injured bleeds more profusely because there is extra blood there to give added protection to the brain. My 24 yr. old daughter has stitches in that same area from falling at age 3. The amount of blood was horrific!! He’ll survive. Hope all is well again! God bless you!