One week ago today we sat nervously in the adoption center in Zhengzhou and watched as our little guy walked through those doors. One wild and precious week. Watching him grieve is hard and sad. I told Josh, I wonder what he’ll be like even just a week from now and here we are. He is still absolutely processing what all is happening and I assume will continue to for a long long time, but man, what a difference just a week has made.
I met another mom at breakfast one morning and she and I sat by each other at our visa appointment this morning. We talked about that one week…seven days, but wow what a difference we had seen in just that short time period. It made us both teary.
Everett has been warming up so much faster in the morning. Yesterday he was giggling at breakfast and this morning he was giggling before we left the room. Every day we just move ever so slowly together in the direction of trust. I cannot even fathom what his little mind and heart are feeling. I’ll never come close to grasping his sense of loss…or Solomon or Amon’s for that matter. So I pray. I pray and pray and pray asking God to be everything they need…to fill in the gaps and mend hearts.
Everett isn’t refusing food anymore. He eats and eats. His initial reaction isn’t no every time now. He’s less angry acting. Less emotionless. There’s less hitting. He has not stood at the sink and let the water run over his hands any the past 3 days. We are seeing what a funny little guy he is and how he throws up dueces in pictures all by himself. He loves snacks and naps and funny faces and belly tickles and his medicine and watching himself in videos.
He does not like dirty hands or big crowds or a dirty pull-up 🙂 He still loves his sippy cup, but it’s less of an attachment now and more of just a way to get water. He understands so much already and is such a good listener. He mimics easily and knows who we are in photos. He loves Josh to hold him when we’re out and about and he likes me to hold him at night when he wakes up. He has snuggled in my arms and fallen asleep 3 times. And why yes, I am counting.
He breaths so heavily his little chest moving so quickly, his heart rate is fast and his O2 levels are low. He’s got the sweetest little purple lips I could kiss a million times over. We’ve seen him run twice both times towards the spinning hotel door and it was the cutest. We are so anxious to see what’s going on in his little heart and hear what the game plan will be. The day we see pink lips and your typical colored & shaped fingers and toes will be a mighty good day.
Harper, Hudson and Solomon are smitten. Their goal since meeting Everett has been to make him feel better. They make him smile and giggle and do silly things. They talk to him and he will say pretty much anything they will. Sometimes we have to remind them he will be with us forever so there is time…no need to rush…no need to smother 🙂 Sometimes he gets overwhelmed by all of us so we have to give him the space his little self needs.
We are incredibly anxious for Everett to meet Amon and our littlest. We have all decided they are sure to be the best of friends and no doubt our littlest will probably boss him around the way she does Amon. We imagine Everett and Amon are going to be the best of buds. They are so similar in so many ways. They love their naps and sleeping in random places and relaxing so chill like…hands behind their heads and legs crossed. They love bubbles and bananas and shift their eyes to the side & up or down when thinking. They make funny faces and love silly games. And they both adore a bath. Amon will be tickled to have a bath-mate again.
We’ve got a long way to go I know. I do not want to fool myself, but I also do not want to overlook how God has moved in our son and in our family in just one weeks time. One week. One wild & precious week with this boy. We sit in awe of Jesus everyday…His love, His grace, His redemptive ways, the good gifts He gives. It is simply too much and our hearts are incredibly overwhelmed by His goodness.
Everett Louie Shuai, it has been an honor to be your mama for an entire week. Here’s to forever!