I’m sad to report that this weekend the last of the Valentines cookies were eaten. It was a very sad day…a sad day indeed. Courtney’s baby shower is this weekend which means I will be making some more in the shapes of cupcakes. Do you see just how sweet that is…an incredible sugar cookie with frosting in the shape of a cupcake…it’s madness.
Good thing I bought waaaay too many Girl Scout cookies from some friends of ours girls. Josh ate an entire box of Samoas before he even got home with the cookies. If you know Josh Kelley this will make you just as angry as it did me because the dude is tall and thin and apparently does not gain weight. Which further increases my belief that I too would be thinner if only I were taller and that Girl Scout cookies are clearly from the devil.
Josh also brought home a bb gun, along with those devilish cookies. I anticipated just how crazy Huddy would go. He was super excited, but out of everyone…that girl right there enjoyed it the most…fancy headband and all.
Some families rotate chores or seats, we have to rotate who feeds Amon. This kid is in high demand I tell ya. High demand.
And why wouldn’t he be. Have you met Amon? He’s all sunshine and rainbows, and big eyes and big hair and then throw in that heart condition and goodness, you don’t have a chance.
He’s literally into everything and crazy about everyone. You can’t do anything is peace anymore with out this dude right there beside you.
He loves the vacuum. He chases it around everywhere and get’s all up in its grill. He has increased my vacuuming time by at least 50%. I have to try and move him really far away and then run back and vacuum as much as I can before he’s back. He’s crazy in love with it.
When brainstorming for a good “thank you” favor for Court’s baby shower, it hit me…wouldn’t most women dig a key fob? Done and done and all in our shower colors…oranges, corals, pinks, tans and turquoise. Loveliness.
Harper was out of school today and is again tomorrow. God bless President’s Day and parent teacher conferences. We have big plans tomorrow. Cardiologist appointment, Chickfila, Charlotte’s Web movie from the library and parent teacher conference. Big day.
And this morning in my cross fit class our fearless leader Todd handed me a bag and said his wife Christy…who is awesome…said they should buy this for me…so they did. In the bag was the most amazing door mat ever with this big anchor on it. Grief is like this big roller coaster and it just goes up and down, up and down. Lately I have felt like I was on a steady decline…crying all the time…just down in general. I seriously wanted to hug Todd and drive to their house and hug Christy and then I wanted to hug that door mat tight and crawl over into a corner of the gym and just have a good sob. No worries, I did none of that…I held it together, but may have had a good cry on the way home from class. I immediately ripped the tag off and placed it on our front porch.
The thing that seems to bother me lately is that I feel rather lonely in my grief…like I’m one of very few people who still remember her and how amazing she was. I know it’s not true, but when you don’t have many people to talk with about her and reminisce about all her memories you begin to feel she is being forgotten. I tell my kids stories all the time and I’m going to make damn sure that in our Kelley house Grammy will not be forgotten. They will remember and remember well her love and grace and kindness and laughter and boldness in Christ.
Most people who know me understand what the anchor means to me and my heart. So I was thrilled about this door mat. Something to remind people who come to our house of this amazing woman and her legacy. Just another reminder of her. Thank you so much Christy and Todd…I bet you never knew just how much I would love a door mat.
Hope your day was grand. Here’s to another week.
Happy Monday.
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Oh, my goodness…how I have been there. Continue to be there…10 1/2 years after my brother passed away. It always has, and always will, make my day when someone talks about him, mentions him or tells me a story involving him. My heart longs to see him again… Even though I know he’s better off in Heaven and he, nor your Mom, would leave there for the world….the human side of things hurt like hell. Life hurts. I’m so so so sorry that you have to go through this. I cry just knowing that pain you feel…the physical hurt that your hearts feels. Praying for you!!! (((((HUGS))))) from your sister in Christ. <3
Oh, Laura, thanks for writing about your mom tonight. I have been lost in a sea of emotion today and until I read your post I couldn’t really identify it. My mom’s birthday is this Friday. Those occasions like birthdays and holidays just don’t get any easier. It’s hard to explain why everything makes me tear up. And I get the feeling most people don’t understand. I totally get why you need to talk about her. So, write away! I’m reading and crying with you, sister.
Laura, I totally understand how you are feeling. The loss of my parents has left such a hole in my heart. It has been 17 yrs. since losing my daddy and almost four years since losing my mother, both my very best friends in this life. I do remember every day to thank God for the blessing of having such wonderful parents. I know everyone does not have this kind of relationship with their parents. I do remember to thank God for blessing me with a wonderful husband and daughter. Their love saves me time and again. I also thank God for being able to connect with someone like you, in hopes that we can both understand that we are not alone in our grief even when it feels like we are.
As always, I enjoyed all the pictures of your sweet family. Thank you for sharing them with all of your online friends.
God bless,
Kellye
So sorry about the blubbery message I just left you. I still miss your mom so much. Got my reminder earlier tonight that we were supposed to Skype. I’ll never remove that reminder. Love the new doormat and I love you and yes, as always, Amon is fabulous along with all of the Kelley children. God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good.
I know exactly how you feel because I feel it, too. I lost my mom (and best friend in the world) a little over two years ago, which feels like no time and forever, all at the same time. I don’t know you personally, but I’d give you a hug if I could! We’ll make it…
I still remember her and how amazing she was. I miss her tons and think about her often. Just wanted you to know. Love you…
Love it! I enjoy your blogs and remembering your Mom! My heart hurt for you through that time, I could never imagine going through what you were going through at that time and then we lost Mom unexpectedly this past summer, and reading your blogs gives me a sense of peace! You’re amazing and have been an Inspiration for sure! You’ve been a great help to me during my times and it’s crazy because I only know you through your site! I just want to say “Thanks”!
Sending you some more virtual hugs! I know how easy it is to feel alone in grief and like everyone else has moved on and “forgotten.” People never cease to amaze me, though. I often get messages or run into people who still tell me how much they miss my dad and feel that the world just isn’t the same without him. I know their grief is different from mine, but it still comforts me to know that I am not alone in missing him and remembering how great he was. He definitely left his mark, as did your mom!
About the cupcake shaped cookies… I just made some! They’re so great! You can decorate them for any occasion and they are super cute! This is probably going to be my go-to cookie cutter from now on. I use cutters for rice krispies treats and brownies sometimes, too. Who doesn’t love a cupcake-shaped anything?! I made cupcake shaped cake pops for Valentine’s Day. I’m all about the cupcakes. I’m a little jealous of the shower you’re throwing and can’t wait to see pictures and hear about it!
Hey Laura ~ I’m a little behind on my blog reading so I’m not even sure if you’ll get this…I have some personal questions I’d like to ask you, but I don’t want to do it here. If you’re willing, I’d like to contact you thru your email address. Please let me know what you think. Don’t feel like you have to and I promise I’m not some crazy blog stalker…. although, we did just meet up with a blog family in Florida!!!
Blessings, Denise
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