Today was filled with more x-rays and ultra sounds and a heart echo and a picc line being put in and Amon is just exhausted. He is really, really doing amazing everything considered…the kid hasn’t eaten since last Thursday…and thank God for morphine. His heart is still doing great, but we’re just having some hiccups. I think this road is just going to be traveled a little more steadily than at the super speedway pace I really was hoping for…and I’m okay with that now.
And tonight Josh brought the kiddos up to see Amon and me. All day I was just so anxious for them to get here. I could not wait for tonight. I needed all 6 of us to be together…my heart needed it big time. I needed hugs and kisses and I needed to hear someone call me “mama”…and it was lovely. I hated to see them leave. I just wanted us to make a blanket and pillow pile in Amon’s floor and slumber party it out, but there is school and hospital rules.
It was really sweet to see the kids with Amon again. They all just adore him. When Harper saw him for the first time I wanted to crawl into the corner of his room and cry my eyes out. This little girl has so much going on in her head and I just want to be there for her and help her understand so many things that a small 5-year-old has no business even thinking about, let alone sitting and worrying about. I just want to make her world rainbows and unicorns, but that’s just not life. So Josh and I are doing the best we can to help her little brain grasp what has gone on over the past year and what is currently going on around her.
The boys were super sweet too. Sol just smiled at Amon and was really wanting some doctors and nurses to come into the room. Huddy was more cautious. He asked, “Is Amon happy or sad right now?” He was trying to understand too.
It was so good for us to be together, even just for a bit. Harper has her first homework project due this Friday and she told Josh she thought she should work on it with me. I love her and her crafty loving heart. So we spent most of the time sitting in the floor working on her project. Josh brought us all the supplies we needed.
For all of Harper’s life whenever you ask her what she wants to be when she grows up she always, always, always says she wants to be an artist. For her class project she had to decorate a paper person like a community worker or what she wants to be when she grows up. Tonight when I asked her what she wanted to be, I was already getting excited about all we could do to make her person look like an artist and then she said, “I want to be a doctor.” Josh and I were a bit shocked, but what an impact Amon’s surgery has already made. I was literally floored at her answer, but my heart swelled with sweetness.
Today I am thankful for our little family of 6. Even though we are a little out of sorts right now, we are always home to each other. Tonight was just so, so good for my heart. I am so thankful to God for this journey and how it is changing and molding our family. Thank you so much for your continued prayers.
Happy Late Wednesday Night!