When He Speaks II

I sat last night in bed and tried to read THIS post I wrote over a year ago on Amon’s developmental and speech delays.  It made me weepy and grateful and I couldn’t even read all of it because it just made my heart hurt a bit.  Over a year ago Amon was in a completely different place then he is today.  Sometimes it’s easy to look back and sometimes it’s hard.  We were all struggling…grasping at straws…holding on tight…trying to be hopeful, but the end was no where in site.  No one knew if Amon would ever really take off with his speech.  He had already been in therapy for a while and still only had only 1 word.  It was hard to be hopeful when we just weren’t seeing the progress we longed too.  We were’t hearing his words.

Now here I sit on our couch while the 2 littles are napping and we’ve said our goodbyes this week to his 2 therapists.  It’s been graduation week for him.  He has done therapy every Monday and Wednesday for a long time.  They aren’t just his therapists, but a part of our family.  We love both of these ladies so much.  They didn’t just do their jobs, they excelled at them.  And they loved Amon well…so very very well.  Goodbyes can be awesome and sad.

There were things like M&Ms and treats and coloring.  There were donuts and a Chuck E Cheese gift card because he’s currently obsessed.  And bubbles.  Lots of bubbles because they both know how much he adores them.  Everything made me teary because they love him and he loves them.  Oh how the conversations between them have grown and changed over their time together.

These moments are bittersweet in so many ways.  I cannot say enough how overjoyed I am to hear Amon’s thoughts out loud from his own little mouth with his own little words.  It’s crazy sweet.  I’m reminded of how it felt to finally leave the hospital after his open heart surgery.  I was scared and happy to finally take him home, but also felt overwhelmed and at a loss for all those families who remained and those who wouldn’t ever get to go home with their children.  The world can be heartbreaking.

I am so thankful he speaks now…and a lot.  I know there are many families who just long to hear what their child’s voice sounds like.  I do not take Amon’s words for granted.  God keeps reminding me He is His holy self in all situations.  He is good in all situations.  He is mighty and strong and desires all the glory for Himself in all situations.  So even if Amon never spoke God would still be God on His throne and He is always good.

God continues to have such mercy on Amon’s life.  Josh Kelley and I have been replaying his tiny short 3 years and just WOW…that’s about all we can say about God’s goodness and mercy and grace. I don’t share Amon’s whole story because I’m one fierce protective momma bear and it is his story to share some day, but I hope he writes a book because it’s a good one.

So today we are just consumed with gratefulness in how far God has brought Amon…especially on his journey to finding his words.  Amon’s name means “faithful” and that is exactly what God has weaved all throughout Amon’s story…His faithfulness.  Thankful and honored I get to listen to him speak and share his 3-year-old thoughts.  It’s quite the ear full 🙂

Happy Wednesday.

3 Comments

  1. This is the very best.

  2. Needed to hear this today, that God is faithful, even when it seems He isn’t. Thanks for sharing!

  3. I don’t have much to say – except that this warmed my heart. what a special reminder of God’s love and faithfulness.

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