I spent the weekend at a woman’s conference in Texas called Hope Spoken. It was great. I’m still thinking through all my thoughts and dreams which seem to have surfaced during the 3 days. I don’t get to go away too often, but when I do it’s full on crazy town in my heart and head when I re-enter our life.
When Josh Kelley and all the kids picked me up at the airport we immediately headed for dinner to celebrate Harper’s birthday. Yesterday she turned 8 and 8 was always the age in my head that seemed “old” for a kid. I cried while the staff at the restaurant sang happy birthday to her. She’s just this really great, loving and kind kid. She makes my heart want to burst.
Of course Josh Kelley did his dad thing while I was away with pink and blue wafflers per Harper’s request for breakfast and covered her door in fun colorful streamers to which our current littlest has been plucking away at. I was so thrilled to celebrate with her last night. She’s just delightful. She’s having some friends over Saturday to make things and don’t even ask me if I have anything prepared because the answer is a loud and stress-filled “NO!” I’m swimming in to-dos, but am trying not to let them over take my heart and attitude.
As life goes our littlest is losing her sweet little mind crying a lot including while we ate and celebrated last night and now were headed to the doctor this morning. And Hudson puked all in his top bunk in the middle of the night. All I could think as I watched Josh washing the throw up from his comforter and as I wiped up puke from his sheets was that I expect nothing less from Satan to try and get right to work. As I loaded the washer at 2am I repeated over and over again “God you see me. God you see me.”
When I re-enter life I always feel really overwhelmed and anxiety easily creeps in. Even if its from a vacation with our whole family. I start very quickly to lose my mind and let the enemy take over my heart and thoughts. I really, really didn’t want this to be the case with this morning. I’m constantly reminding myself God sees me right where I am. I feel like I have so much to do, but I’ve prioritized and just keep saying “God you see me.”
Taxes and Easter orders and mothering and Bible journaling class prep and a fabulous 8-year-olds creative party prep and baseball practice and soccer practice and and and…life just rolls on and I’m trying to keep my heart and head centered on Christ through each thing…big, little, important or mundane.
A little blog housekeeping…I’m kind of up to my eyeballs in orders right now, so I’m going to close for custom orders for a bit and try and play catch up. I’ve got some new thoughts about my business and need to hash them all out with Josh Kelley. I’m really excited though. If we’ve exchanged emails about your order then you’re good.
So here’s to a good and encouraging week. God sees us right where we are and He knows what our week holds already.